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I’m getting tired.

Contrary to my appearance, I'm running out of energy. The daily routine of going to work, coming back home, has been awfully energy-draining. Although a year back, I would have been spending more time at school, it just doesn't feel the same anymore. The 12 hours I spend in school was so enjoyable, opposed to the 9 hours at work. I just don't feel myself anymore.

I feel as though this new world's eating me up, slowly. Maybe I haven't fully submitted myself into this new reality, but I may just never be able to do so. And when that line's reached, I don't know what my reaction would be. I cannot foresee any future within these 2 years; I can only see more misery. The notion of National Service is self-defeatist. Creating a pool of unhappy & drained soldiers would only dampen the workplace atmosphere. Maybe I'm developing a form of social stigma, but I'd reckon many would second it.

I'm tired of meeting people's expectations. I'm more exhausted meeting my own expectations.

I need an outing, my dear friends. It may not seem like it, but I terribly appreciate every second spent with you people.