Tired
These few days had given me a plethora of emotions. Anger, sadness, happiness, I've experienced them all. And betrayal.
I'm not going to hide my emotions, because it's not going to solve anything. On the other hand, it'll probably cause me to be more frustrated. I'm sorry if I caused anyone trouble these few days, it's not really going too well for me. I've had a myraid of issues running through my mind, and I ended up not sleeping the whole night. Yet, I'm not the least bit tired. Perhaps I'm more tired emotionally.
It's been awhile since such a thing had happened, the last time was probably in 2007. Hah I'm not going to dwell too much over it; what for bring myself to recall unnecessary pains.
It's now Christmas Eve, one day away to the very-important Christmas. I really love Christmas; I deem it as a very pure, honest event. It's hard for me to really describe my feelings in words, so don't mind if I cannot seem to explain. It's just so special, and it's somewhat the epitome of innocence for me. A little exaggerated, but I mean what I say.
Within a few days, 2009 is coming. What will the new year bring for us? I haven't planned my new year resolutions, but I'll probably get it done within these nights. 2009 was supposed to be very important for me. Was. Hah it's a shattered dream once again. I'll just look forward to my NS Enlistment, on the 28th of Jan. Perhaps it'll be a life-changing period for me, who knows even. Perhaps after NS, in Uni, it may introduce a surprise in my life.
The future is a mystery, the past is history, and the present is a gift. That's why it's called the present. I'm looking forward to the future mysteries, reflecting on the bittersweet history, cherishing the cherished times I have now.
Yet, I've also made a huge decision that's probably going to leave tongues wagging. For the first time, I'm breaking of friendships. Friendships. The series of events these few days really leave me with no choice. Time after time, I'm being startled by stunning situations that really leave me dumbfounded. It's not your fault, but I don't think it's my fault either. Fate wants us to part. That's all I want to know.
Merry Christmas everyone. I hope you cherish Christmas like how I do. It's just unfortunate I'm not in the right state of mind to be in the mood of celebration.