Windows Live Beta
I just updated my Windows Live Messenger to the 9.0 Beta, courtesy of Qi’ie! :) The visual designs are more stunning than its predecessor, and it’s simpler too. It kinds of appeals to me, hah. My only gripe is it doesn’t display the email address in the conversation window (or maybe there’s a setting for that?), which really leaves me wondering who I am talking to at times. Nicknames are so transient, so I cannot keep track of who’s who, without their email addresses.
Okay I also downloaded Windows Live Writer, a software to blog. Yup. I don’t know why I’m using it to blog, but who knows, I might just use this to blog in the future. It’s simple enough for me, and I think it’s faster than having to load the frontend of the admin panel.
I’m awfully bored at home. ):
love
Love; It can make you smile for the rest of your life, but it can also make you cry for the rest of your life.
Yet why are we always taking the risk, and even plunge further into the river of love when we know we are going to drown in sorrow.
Maybe that's the power of love: I will be contented, even with two hours of tears alone, just for that one second of kiss with you
Tired
These few days had given me a plethora of emotions. Anger, sadness, happiness, I've experienced them all. And betrayal.
I'm not going to hide my emotions, because it's not going to solve anything. On the other hand, it'll probably cause me to be more frustrated. I'm sorry if I caused anyone trouble these few days, it's not really going too well for me. I've had a myraid of issues running through my mind, and I ended up not sleeping the whole night. Yet, I'm not the least bit tired. Perhaps I'm more tired emotionally.
It's been awhile since such a thing had happened, the last time was probably in 2007. Hah I'm not going to dwell too much over it; what for bring myself to recall unnecessary pains.
It's now Christmas Eve, one day away to the very-important Christmas. I really love Christmas; I deem it as a very pure, honest event. It's hard for me to really describe my feelings in words, so don't mind if I cannot seem to explain. It's just so special, and it's somewhat the epitome of innocence for me. A little exaggerated, but I mean what I say.
Within a few days, 2009 is coming. What will the new year bring for us? I haven't planned my new year resolutions, but I'll probably get it done within these nights. 2009 was supposed to be very important for me. Was. Hah it's a shattered dream once again. I'll just look forward to my NS Enlistment, on the 28th of Jan. Perhaps it'll be a life-changing period for me, who knows even. Perhaps after NS, in Uni, it may introduce a surprise in my life.
The future is a mystery, the past is history, and the present is a gift. That's why it's called the present. I'm looking forward to the future mysteries, reflecting on the bittersweet history, cherishing the cherished times I have now.
Yet, I've also made a huge decision that's probably going to leave tongues wagging. For the first time, I'm breaking of friendships. Friendships. The series of events these few days really leave me with no choice. Time after time, I'm being startled by stunning situations that really leave me dumbfounded. It's not your fault, but I don't think it's my fault either. Fate wants us to part. That's all I want to know.
Merry Christmas everyone. I hope you cherish Christmas like how I do. It's just unfortunate I'm not in the right state of mind to be in the mood of celebration.
inspiration
Actually, I have a draft waiting to be published. It still needs a bit more content, and an awful load of pictures, before it'll be out. Yet, I cannot seem to finish that blog entry. It's about my taiwan trip, and there's just a lot to blog about. And you know the thing about blogging, you can't just blog randomly. There needs to be inspiration, and the "feel" for it. Sadly, I do not have that at the moment, and I'm unable to produce any good quality blog entries. Oh what the heck, how do I even define good quality.
Anyway, a day after I came back from Taiwan, oh yes, there was the JJ Seniors' Prom 2008. It was simply memorable, or as I'd put it, an epic memory. I was honestly impressed with the whole concept, or perhaps I had contrasted it with the pathetic Hua Yi Graduation Night. To even call that a graduation night is an overstatement. I call it, the Hua Yi Take-cert-and-leave-ceremony. Yes, that's a more apt name.
Okay that's besides the point, JJ Prom was really awfully eventful. We had our Prom at Shangri La Hotel Ballroom, and oh the lightings are just so spectacular. Ah, there was also the photo taking portion. I swear, I smiled until my mouth almost cramped. But it was worth it, it was. Okay, I don't want to talk too much about Prom, I'm even bored blogging it out.
After Prom, we went over to Singapore River; wanted to find a pub and just chill out. Unfortunately, Monday was a bad day to find pubs that opened throughout the night. We managed to find one which closed at 2, and it was already 1.20. Ah, so we just sat down, made our orders, and crapped throughout. After sometime, went over to the bridge, and just chitchatted. Oh, I fell asleep - was too tired already.
Ah k, that marks those few days.
Then, I had a chalet with my fellow Squashers. Well, some of them.
... which I'll blog more in the next entry.
As usual, I'm dried of inspiration. Sigh.
Emo.
I'm probably going to sound like an emo shit in this post.
But, I never fail to tear whenever I read a really heartwrenching story, whenever I watch a really touching show, whenever I think of my heartaching past.
Seems like the end of A'Levels has brought me what I once experienced, the reminiscence of back then. But I've grown, and I'm no longer that emo little boy.
When I say I'll cherish you, I mean it.