a’levels over ?
Although I just had my last paper yesterday, it doesn't feel anything near remarkable. If I could put into words how I felt, it would be something like "Over alr ah? Okay. Next."
That's probably how many feel. The rigorous regime of JC life really demeans tests and exams. I mean, what's the true value of tests and exams when I'm having them so often? It's almost a every-other-day routine already. I hardly feel the stress that ought to come before an exam, nor do I feel the excitement that should surface at the end of it.
Now that everything is over, I must say, it had been a long and really arduous journey thus far. And for it to end just like that, somehow just doesn't feel right. Maybe I've been too accustomed to studying that I forgot what life really is, or was. If I had any gripes about the education system, it would probably be the unusually competitive environment we grow up in. Just look at other countries around us, how much we are studying as compared to them. It's ironic, in some sense.
Then again, my joy would be in the lessons I've learnt, in the friends I've made, in the skills I honed, in the growth I've attained. It's so surreal, almost unbelievable. It even slipped off my mind that I had my last paper yesterday.
In a few days, I'll be leaving for Taiwan. I'll probably never come back; it's much nicer there.
Yeah right.
How I wish.
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It kinds of pains my heart, to know that one of my friends is suffering from a heartbreak. I tend to feel that pain, even though I'm not involved. And probably because I'm me, I feel more. It's a good and a bad thing, and I prefer to agree with the former.
I simply hate it when guys treat their girls as 'things', and abuse to their whim and fancy. Okay probably the other way round too. I read this on a friend's blog before, "when i see a pretty girl with an average guy, i always hope she doesnt hurt him". I suppose the opposite applies to. Maybe I'm still living in my own fantasy world, with my own fantasy relationships and whatnot. But I suppose it's not a crime to want to have a nice girlfriend, who I can cherish and be loved in return; who I can adore and be appreciated in return.
Maybe I'm too fantasy for this world.
Nonetheless, I want to wish this friend of mine, a peaceful and happy journey ahead. Let the memories of the past remain etched in some corner of your mind, and hope they do not surface to remind you of the bad times, instead remind you of the journey you've gone through, and understand that you deserve better! At least, I think so. Chase after that beautiful rainbow that you always adore, and don't forget you always have friends who will support you all the way! :)
As much as I may have diminished from your memory, I will always be here as your friend, as someone whom you can anytime approach and talk to if you feel like. That's my promise to you :)