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miss me!

In 13 hours, I will have left Singapore. I'm leaving for a far away country, abandoning my old life, and preparing to start afresh. I'll be gone, missing from Singapore, missing from the place that all of us live in. And, I'll probably never return .. ..

.. at least until next Saturday, 29th! :)

My trip is finally closing in, and yes, I'm flying off 1pm Saturday. I'm quite excited, since it's my first time flying with my clique; it's also the first time I flown in like 148901284 years. But, I also do not feel excited, because I keep thinking of the ubiquitous what-ifs in whatever I do. Like, when I pack, I think "what if I forget this? or forget that?". When I think of our journey around the area, I think "what if this happens, what if that happens?"

I'm sorry for being so worrying, but I can't help but feel that something will go wrong. Like Murphy says, "What can go wrong, will go wrong." That theory has happened to be before, and I'm not surprised if it happens again. I'm being extremely cautious already, making sure I brought what I need to bring.

Besides, I'm already almost bringing my whole house!

I won't be bringing any camera, unfortunately. First, I don't have any portable digital camera. Second, the less-portable SLR camera that my brother has, I cannot bring because he needs it the next day. Ugh, what a waste. I could have taken some very wonderful pictures. Ahhh!

I wonder what we will do the moment we touch down. I reaaaally hope it doesn't start raining on us. It'll be so depressing, really. We haven't any backup plan, so I'm betting all my hope in an okay weather.

Suddenly I ran out of words to blog. I'm thinking of a lot of things that I don't wish to blog out. Perhaps over the next few days, I'll blog each day to keep a record of what we've done so far! :) I wish I could picture blog though. Awww.

Okays, miss me people! :D

busy busy busy

Hello! :) I've been somehow extremely packed with activities recently. It's kinda cool having something to do always, but also gets tiring easily. BUT! Oh I just love my life now :D

I went back to school this morning to take my Bio Paper. HAHA. Actually, I went back to meet my classmates to pass them their Prom Night tickets and goody bags. Oh and the goody bags are pretty good! There's two cans of free Nescafe Latte! :D Oh my love. And also, New Urban Male vouchers. There's also a Chapter2 voucher, although I've not looked at it in great detail. Either way, it seems pretty great so far. My holiday, that is. :D

After that, I went to Jurong West Sports Complex with Wei Xin to play badminton with her cousin and her brother. Well, there were actually more people who ought to have come. But... as expected, they didn't turn up. Oh I know them so well already. HAHA.

It was actually pretty cool playing badminton! :D Especially when I just played Squash the previous day. I mean, the two games are fairly different, and I think I was playing half-Squash half-Badminton today. Hahaha. I actually liked Badminton today! :) There was just a teeny problem that I have chosen to close my both eyes to. Why make my life so troubling! :D I've learnt to walk the safest path.

Then we went to Jurong Point to meet the Muggers. Okay maybe we really shouldn't be named as that anymore, given that A's are over. We did some planning for our Taiwan trip, and I must say, today's progress was exceptionally fast. But to be honest, I don't really have any comments on the itinerary anyway. I don't have specific places to go, so I pretty much left the planning to them. I'll just be your trustworthy .. .. traveller! Hahaha.

Oh Gwen if you're seeing this, congrats on your new hairstyle! :D I think it was pretty cool how you really changed so much! :D

Anyways, Jowell and myself then went to IMM to do some shopping. There was an Innovation Club BBQ that evening. (For those who are in the unknown, Innovation Club was my CCA in my Secondary School. It's a pretty cool CCA!) I had initially budgeted only two hundred dollars for food. When we did our payment at the cashier, it came up to a total of nearly three hundred and fifty dollars! That exceeded the budget by almost 60%! Hahaha!

Oh just a sign of caution for those who are doing BBQing, DO NOT BUY CHARCOAL AND FIRESTARTERS FROM GIANT. Thank you very much! :D

Because, they simply suck. Although they burn easily, but they also die out easily. The charcoal pieces are all crushed into tiny pieces, to the extent it was terrible trying to sustain a fire. It just kept burning off too quickly. And the firestarters, are they even burnable? Okay maybe yes, I'm exaggerating a little. But seriously I was quite annoyed by them. It was torturous to get them to light, what more set up a fire -_-. For the sake of having to eat, we ended up toasting some of the food in ovens. How sad simply.

Then we got some juniors to go buy a different brand of charcoal and firestarters. Wow, you could just see how different it was. The pieces were gigantic compared to the previous ones. And the firestarters were almost heavenly - they lighted up so easily. The best part is, we bought it from the sundry shop opposite Hua Yi. I'm utterly disgusted with Giant's BBQ products. Ugh.

Then after awhile, we went up to the IT Resource Room 1, where our juniors had prepared a video for one of the teachers who was leaving the school come December. I'm not going to comment too much on this. Anyways, I shall take this opportunity to wish her all the best in her new school! Even though she probably will never see this. Hahaha.

I wonder what might happen to Innovation Club in time to come, given the huge transitions thus far. Experienced teachers, leaving. Experienced students, leaving. Who's left to handle the club? Sigh. I just hope they understand their own conditions and situations, and twist appropriately to make the best out of it. After all, that is their club. It's gonna be a long blog entry if I carry on talking about the club; so I shall stop here ----.

TAIWAN TRIP! :D We're flying off this Saturday. Woo.

a’levels over ?

Although I just had my last paper yesterday, it doesn't feel anything near remarkable. If I could put into words how I felt, it would be something like "Over alr ah? Okay. Next."

That's probably how many feel. The rigorous regime of JC life really demeans tests and exams. I mean, what's the true value of tests and exams when I'm having them so often? It's almost a every-other-day routine already. I hardly feel the stress that ought to come before an exam, nor do I feel the excitement that should surface at the end of it.

Now that everything is over, I must say, it had been a long and really arduous journey thus far. And for it to end just like that, somehow just doesn't feel right. Maybe I've been too accustomed to studying that I forgot what life really is, or was. If I had any gripes about the education system, it would probably be the unusually competitive environment we grow up in. Just look at other countries around us, how much we are studying as compared to them. It's ironic, in some sense.

Then again, my joy would be in the lessons I've learnt, in the friends I've made, in the skills I honed, in the growth I've attained. It's so surreal, almost unbelievable. It even slipped off my mind that I had my last paper yesterday.

In a few days, I'll be leaving for Taiwan. I'll probably never come back; it's much nicer there.

Yeah right.

How I wish.

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It kinds of pains my heart, to know that one of my friends is suffering from a heartbreak. I tend to feel that pain, even though I'm not involved. And probably because I'm me, I feel more. It's a good and a bad thing, and I prefer to agree with the former.

I simply hate it when guys treat their girls as 'things', and abuse to their whim and fancy. Okay probably the other way round too. I read this on a friend's blog before, "when i see a pretty girl with an average guy, i always hope she doesnt hurt him". I suppose the opposite applies to. Maybe I'm still living in my own fantasy world, with my own fantasy relationships and whatnot. But I suppose it's not a crime to want to have a nice girlfriend, who I can cherish and be loved in return; who I can adore and be appreciated in return.

Maybe I'm too fantasy for this world.

Nonetheless, I want to wish this friend of mine, a peaceful and happy journey ahead. Let the memories of the past remain etched in some corner of your mind, and hope they do not surface to remind you of the bad times, instead remind you of the journey you've gone through, and understand that you deserve better! At least, I think so. Chase after that beautiful rainbow that you always adore, and don't forget you always have friends who will support you all the way! :)

As much as I may have diminished from your memory, I will always be here as your friend, as someone whom you can anytime approach and talk to if you feel like. That's my promise to you :)

fall for you

Fall For You
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Ohh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

Play this song from my music playlist on the left side :D It's really nice.

a’levels

I've never felt so happy in exams before. I'm about 3/4 to the completion of all my A'Level papers, and I just had Econs Paper 2 today. The strange thing is, as I was about to turn over the question paper, I was terribly fearful.

Economics is split into two major sections: Micro-economics and Macro-economics. In Paper 2, we had to do 3 essays, out of 6 options. 3 were from Micro, 3 were from Macro. I was already pretty sure my 2 choices would be from Macro. The last choice was from micro, and I had my eyes only on a certain topic called Market Failure. Because it had appeared all the previous years, I put all my hopes into it coming out again this year. So, I didn't study any other micro-economics topics. Okay, I did, but not as much as market failure.

So when I turned over the question paper, I was like freaking scared, that Market Failure wouldn't come out. If it didn't, I would have instantly lost 25/75 marks.

So I turned,

And initially, I got shocked.

Because I couldn't identify the market failure question at first - the question requirements was put in such a .. unlikeable way. But I saw the terms 'market failure', and I was like heaving a sigh of relief. BUT, it was one of the hardest questions I ever seen.

So much for banging on one topic. It did come out, yes. But it was the hardest ever. How unlucky can I get?

Nonetheless, I wrote a phenomenal amount for all my 3 essays, probably bullshitting all the way through. But anyway, when the examiner said Time was up, I sat there, staring at the paper for awhile. I couldn't believe that it was over, because I hadn't really finished the essay. In a sense, I had intentionally omitted some content to meet the time limit, and I really wanted to add it in. So when it ended, I was quite in a state of shock. I got over it after awhile, and started cursing at the paper -.-

There was no link to previous years. The context were all brand new, and never seen before. It's really interesting how I screwed all my H2 papers.

Oh, I forgot to mention, we had only 45 minutes per essay, inclusive of reading the question, analysing the question, generating points, planning essay outline, and writing out the whole essay.

How on earth can someone produce good quality essays in so short a time? What a joke.

I have 3 papers left, including tomorrow's Economics Case Study. I'll probably put in more effort tomorrow; I'm pretty tired today after econs already. Somehow, just with a little bit of hope, I wish all my papers would be marked leniently.

Next February, I don't want to receive my results and cry over it. No regrets, I hope.